The Act of Remembering|Beauty from Ashes

It’s 5am 10/14/2017 and I’m woken up from the usual urge to urinate, extreme hunger pains, as well as the feel of baby boy moving. I pick up my phone to see what time it is and I look at the date on my phone. 10/14. A sudden feeling of saddness overwhelms me and I […]

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And Fear Strikes Again| ER Visit at 8 Weeks

And Fear Strikes Again|ER Visit at 8 Weeks   As stated in a previous blog post, my first ultrasound was with our fertility clinic at 7w4d on March 20th. Three days later, still feeling as if I was on cloud nine, I resumed the day as any other day. I left my house early to […]

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Valentine’s Day- Love Day & the Pursuit of Baby.

So, it was like any other day, well except this particular day I woke up with a plethora of emotions. I was missing my husband terribly and today was the day we would be “knocked up”, PUPO (Pregnant until proven otherwise), PASP (Pregnant and Staying Pregnant), and all the other clever phrases to describe getting […]

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2nd Embryo Transfer

So, this post is going to be a bit short, as I desire to stray away from being repetitive; however, with repeating fertility treatments, my protocols have been quite the same so it’s hard not to be repetitive with these posts. I digress, anyway, we started up the process of our second transfer fairly quickly […]

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IVF Medications & Putting all of our eggs in one basket!

Gonal F, Cetrotide, Lupron, OH MY! There’s nothing really fun about poking yourself several times a day with needles, BUT I fortunately only had to do two day injections and then one additional injection the day of our egg retrieval. Due to the fact I’ve already done injections (trigger/hcg) for previous non-invasive fertility treatments, I […]

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Christmas & Heavy Hearts

So, Christmas the most wonderful time of year, and me and my husband’s favorite holiday! This time of year should be filled with love, joy, lovely decorations, hot cocoa, or my favorite,  caramel brûlée latte from Starbucks.  Every year my husband and I have always held onto hope that the next winter season we would […]

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Another year married, another year of empty arms- A letter to my husband.

My dearest handsome love, I can remember as if it was yesterday the day we got married, how exhilarated and filled with hope we were for our future. We made plans to travel, continue our education, add a pet to our little family and of course children. We actually discussed having children prior to getting […]

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